My grandmother witnessed the murder of her baby sister in Second World War Poland. 

This trauma was transmitted in an untold way through my mother to me.

I got aware of it when I became myself a mother.

"Children of the golden Sun" is documenting my attempt of transmuting this pain.

 

I do not represent war.

Instead I decided to explore the human internal world.

To bring into awareness the internal pieces that hyper-violence destroys, for generations.

Shaping how life is being experienced.

I chose to portray a young girl.

A young girl as my grandmother was when she experienced the pain, 

a young girl as I was when I got in touch of my mother’s pain,

a young girl also representing my daughter.

 

Past, present, future.

 

The grandmother, mother and daughter all incarnated in one body.

An individual, ancestral, collective body, expressed through her body.

The young girl’s body.

 

But also, somehow, somewhere, a potential body, that was taken from the baby sister.

 

I feel that there is an intuitive landscape which transcends borders between those bodies.

A place where everything is connected, where the experience of one is echoed in the others,

a place where transgenerational pain can be addressed and eventually healed.

I believe that by healing the individual story, the possibility arises to shift the collective inclinations, and thus the future History.

 

In “Children of the golden Sun” I am giving shape to experiences that came with a state of deep emotional and mental anxiety,

but also through dreams, from inner meditative spaces alongside life experiences.

 

While confronting inner violence, the most difficult part was to find the part within, that accepts and understands what has happened.

Pieces, that have been broken, since generations.

 

Which part of love has been broken?

 

For each pain manages to disconnect something within us.

Slowly regaining memories, rebuilding the fragmented parts, a feeling is emerging.

A feeling of belonging, of the self, of an ancestral body towards a universal structure.

 

Nature itself.

 

Nature that is able to hold it all.

 

There is a form of intelligence that nature carries.

An intelligence that we deeply alienated ourself from.

The intelligence of the sun, of the sea, of its particles…

Where the sun illuminates with truth, the sea facilitates the process of change.

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For we carry the Sea within us.

For we carry the Sun within us.